today is jie jie b dae...happy birhtday!!!and happy childrens' day to everyone!!!
end of prelims...so happy abt that...but my mood was totally spoilt..
on the way home..had a quarrel with my mom(again?!?!)she was being so unreasonable...i hate her!!!!!!!
yesterday nite i was watching singapore idol...and here she comes asking me to teach her how to delete the msg on the pic msg so can type in her own and send to me sis...i was watching the tv le...so i told her later...or tomolo morning...do now send already too early ma...then if do this morning then send will juz nice be on her b dae...she wake up can see liao...then she keep pestering and this and that and i told her to wait!then she say aiya dun wan teach then dun wan teach bla bla...did i say dun wan??
then on the way home juz now i ask her to pass me her phone i help her delete the msg below 1st then she say dun need le lah i dun wan send this and that...then i was like huh?i told u today i teach u then she keep rattering say u think i so free as u arh...(was i free yesterday)then she was like raising her voice and of course i will raise my voice la..then she say now my sis gone u shout and me wat so ever and everyone also shout...i was like...do u expect me to hao shen hao qi talk to u when u give me this type of attitude?then was like saying i dun respect her...did she respect me?she say i never do anything for her...was that true?how come she only remember the things she did for me and nt the stuffs i do for her?that is so unfair!i was so angry and drops of tears swell in my eyes...
then she go on with the old usual stuffs that i hate most...i become ya ba la...dun need talk la...wont ask u do anything anymore la(if she ask me to do things b4 how come say i never do anything for her?isnt she contradicting?)and on and on and on...i remember saying sth to her tt if u wish me to die soon i die for u to see...i almost jump out of the car when the car was moving at tt pt of time...i was super hurt by her lor...
she used to say i wan sth i always wan it now and cant wait...isnt she doing the same thing?if she doesnt respect me?expect me to respect her?i just hate it... i hate the world...i hate everything that is going on around me...and i hate myself even more...urgh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

today a maths 2 was ok...but i gt like 20 marks nt sure...dunno will get a not..during exam i had pain again...just as i had said...i hate myself

beary hugss-9:06 AM